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Merry Christmas to one and all!!!! Drink eat drink eat and put time in with your better half for a lot of naughty lovin! No better half?? Find a random yummy and have at er! Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle all The Way! La la la lala lala lalalala la la la hey!

Hmmmm,I'm in a strange place,a place of mushy cuddly gooey girliness...Isshhhh! So not me.Somehow I have gone from my usual independent it's all about me mode to,"I wonder how he would feel about this"I donno how it happened,somewhere in 5 weeks he has broken me down into this ishhy mess that I am.Me as part of a couple?? hmmm I donno.Is it a good thing or bad?I'm feeling alittle confused and this intense feeling of run away is overwhelming sometimes,but then again I always bugger off before feelings are involved.Ah hell,there are feelings involved.Is it a good thing or a bad I don't know but I'm curious about the outcome.Ahhhhh Out of all the men I have met he is the first to get to know me past all the fluff and stuff,and still likes me! LOL! Mabes he's crazy! So here I sit,walls are down,feeling open and ready for a kick in the head.Waiting for the "I told you so" playing in my head.Yet somehow really having a blast in the meantime! HIGH FIVE YOU!

I'm so pissed off right now...Good or bad I have a friend whom most of the time has a pretty good brain,however lately he isn't making the most of it.Drinking every night for the last 9 or so evenings and actually saying it's a sub for sex! Really that's a load of crap if I ever heard one! Most of the time I try to keep my mouth shut and go about my own business but this is extreme.Not only is he drinking everynight(4 or more)but he's also on meds.The combination of the 2 is not a happy blend.I'm angry that he doesn't see the forest through the trees and the excuse for it is just pathetic.He's smarter than this! So I thought..He has the ability for far far more.He's probably angry that I keep calling him on it,but I really don't care.If I was pulling this stupid stuff,he'd b the first one to call me on it.Am I willing to watch him self destruct?? Nope,can't do it.I have always championed him,but I can't on this..Grow up! Smarten up! U wanna go out and have a few,go for it.Not every day!I'm angry that someone that smart needs to b told this sort of thing and if he wants to b angry with me cause I told him so,well I just gotta suck it up.In the long run I would hope my friends would risk the anger,as oppose to the fall out of the behavior that I have seen.So Screw U! Stupid!

Went out last night,,the second time during a work week..Had such a good time! I love my Abby they way it was,but l8ly it's just really "old".Same faces same music(bad)nothin new,hell even the toilets aren't cleaned properly anymore.So I've been in search of a new place to put my feet up.I have to admit I'm lovin "The Still" ,I have had the bestest time ever! I'm seeing new Faces and talking with a wide assortment of Joes and getting different outlooks..Ahhh I'ts Great!! Big Thanx To K and D,D..You know who u are for making it even better!Hmmm mabes my Abby days are gone forever..................Tear flick

Soooo hot!! Ishhh yuck yuck,thank the good lord for air conditioning! Met some interesting people the other night at "The Still" Really nice people.It was a good change.The ones I meet up with l8ly are assholes LOL!!Nothin on you P!Oh I wish I had a higher tolorance for beer,,everyone can kick back and have a 5,but not me! Nope 2 and whahooey!!..Sucks!!I think I'll go shopping when I'm done work,really need new shoes and something pretty.hmmmmm yup yup! That's what I'll do! New Shoes!!..Then mabes take Sarah out for a beer.........I think my brain fell out....

I'm suppose to ride my pirate tonight,but it's raining hard and I can't get out of the house..Y Me! Y! Me..shit shit and more shit!! Avast me hearties,life sucks.....................I sure as hell won't.......... :(

today was strange different and unexpected..Everything has been odd and messed,but somehow has ended fab! Yay! I LOVE MY LIFE!! GO ME!

Went out last night,much l8r than usual.Too much to drink and a headache to prove it..Ishhhh. Very concerned however about someone I know,he's usually up and running,last night it was different.He seems to have lost his spark and I don't know how to help him.I know at times we all need to introvert gather our thoughts and then are able to discuss whatever issue is on our minds.I'm just worried he'll try to tough whatever it is out himself and just fall deeper into upset.I hope he knows that he can talk to me when he's upset and although I come off as a little judge mental (lol)I am more than able to give him an ear whenever need b. That's it for today... Take care u!

So's another big step in tech for me..A live journal eh??I suppose the old pen and paper days are over and now I can rant online for others to see.Hmmm somehow feels so violating,yet freeing at the same time.I'll keep it up and who knows mabes I'll learn from my own life some how.Off I go,yummy "Still" time! And Yes,I'm drinking beer,2 and I'll b done.Thanx Amos for the help today,lord knows I need it with these kind of things.......mabes I'll get laid hmmmmmm,sorry jumped off topic.